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Roller Coaster of Life in Personal Relationships JoeUser Forums

I am an example of the roller coaster of life. I am an example of a good kid gone wrong. I am an example of the party girl, marijuana as the gateway drug, how sex is a bad thing, and why teenage girls should not go to parties, and if they should, they most certainly should not drink. I am an example. I am also a number, a face in the crowd, one of millions of others who have both come before and come after me. I am exactly like so many other people out there that sometimes

I Believe in Fairies in Blogging JoeUser Forums

December 30 Tomorrow could be a very important night for my love life, or at LEAST my chance of getting some temporary action. It's rather ironic, really. Well, no, it's more sad. I feel like a withered old cross dresser painting his wrinkled, worn face with rouge, not because he knows he looks good but because he is clinging to a lifestyle he has definitely lost the touch for. Yet he cannot let his former glory go because he knows what the future holds-he will die cold and alone in an

Reply to Johnny Rotten And Simple Plan? in Music JoeUser Forums

Well first off I better cover myself by saying, don't worry, in no way do I feel that the Ramones and Pistols are the only punk bands ever!! Goodness no! I most CERTAINLY did not forget Black Flag, Iggy, or anyone. It just would have been an even longer read if I added all the real punk bands out there... And Frog Attack, I know how you feel about the Blink situation. Everytime someone tells me they like Blink I laugh. (This is embarrassing but true) Yes I listened to them way back in like 6th g

Johnny Rotten And Simple Plan? in Music JoeUser Forums

The category of "punk rock" is a topic that I have brought up and complained about countless times with my friends. It happens to be one of those things that hits the sore spot, and I feel as though I should support the beloved punk rock genre. Just recently, I was reading an online article that listed popular bands in several genres. I agreed with mostly everything I saw, until the part that read "punk" and followed with Simple Plan and Good Charlotte. This reminds me of a conversation

Feelings of A True Person in Misc JoeUser Forums

Who knows of the darkness out there, the true darkness, not the one that comes in the evening, but the one that snuffs out not just light, but, hopes, dreams, loves, and needs in a grasp that is somehow impossible to loosen? I'm not speaking of the thing that we fall asleep to, not the absence of light, but the absence of life. The feeling in the deepest corners of your heart and mind, the thing that may sneak up on you when you're not expecting it, or perhaps hangs as a cloud over your everyday

Here's Me, True Story in Blogging JoeUser Forums

I want to be real. There is nothing i want more than anything than to be real. That's all I want. And I don't even know what real IS!! It's so weird, but I feel like I'm not who I should be, I don't know why. Haha I want to be a rock star, of course. I can sing, I could easily do it... At least, I think so. I don't forsee any problems that would for some reason... Not let me do it. Of course, I don't have a band, or anything. But really, that's not it either. Christ, who DOESN'T want to be a roc

Real Love in Music JoeUser Forums

We are lovers true and through and though We made it through the storm I really want you to realize I really want to put you on I've been searching for someone to Satisfy my every need Won't you be my inspiration, Be the real love that I need Real love, I'm searching for a real love Someone to set my heart free Real love, I'm searching for a real love Oooh, when I met you I just knew that You would take my heart and run Until you told

What To Say To The Man Of My Dreams? Help Me Out! in Personal Relationships JoeUser Forums

Well... I'm going to start with: "I know this sounds totally crazy, but I'm being honest. This is what I really think and feel, from the bottom of my heart: "I have never met anyone who's made me feel this way in so short a time. I've never wanted to see someone again as much as I've wanted to see you. I've never been so amazed by someone I hardly know. I don't want to be all obsessive or freaky or anything, but you are just... Wow. "I also wanted to let you know that you're a gre

That's How You Know It's Love in Personal Relationships JoeUser Forums

Here I am again... Guess what I'm thinking about. The man. He is amazing. Like, a neverending inspiration to me. I want to see him again. If I do see him again, there are a million things I want to say to him. First of all I will probably have to say that I probably sound crazy, or something, but I don't care I feel so good. And then I'm going to tell him I've had the best last however many days it's been since I saw him last. And that I can't seem to concentrate on anything, my God, I've be

Reply to Elemental: War of Magic v1.4 Released in Games JoeUser Forums

I'm interested about hearing more about you... What do you like? Who are you? What do you do (besides write)? That's what I want to know. Tell me about yourself.

Reply to How I Found My Self Again in Blogging JoeUser Forums

Thanks, that really helps me... I appreciate it.

Reply to Poem for a boy of love in Art JoeUser Forums

This is good, I used to write stuff like this too. I like this kind, it seems the most real. Sometimes when I write love poems, I kind of laugh to think it's really me. But yeah, good.

How I Found My Self Again in Blogging JoeUser Forums

Well clarity has been coming for days. It started, hmm... Maybe two weeks ago when I was thinking about my ex, Stacy (he's a boy, he just has weird parents, maybe?) I just started getting cheery. I felt good, good, good, and then I found out my other ex, Ben, got my ex best friend pregnant, and I was scared that I would get depressed again, since I just had been, and while depressed I had a problem getting over Ben. I thought this would send me right back down again. I have a poem for that:

The Guy Of My Dreams, Cont'd in Personal Relationships JoeUser Forums

Okay so we all know this guy was amazing. And if I don’t ever get to see him again I will just die. I will just collapse. Actually I will never know if I get to see him or not (or if I did, I guess) until I’m in my death bed. DAMN IT! I WANT TO KNOW NOW! Oh if I only knew what he’s thinking right now. Whether he’s thought of me at all. And if so, was it regret? And what would that regret be?? Everything was perfect, what would be wrong? Why would there be no further communication? Damn it he doe

Another Poem in Art JoeUser Forums

Trying hard to close my eyes Preserving every look on your face Got to remember everything Right down to the way you taste It's all fading so fast Even the great words that you said I hope I'll always hear your voice If even only in my head I hope to not forget the look of worship Imbedded deep in your eyes And the moment when you kissed me I don't ever want to lose that surprise Tears fall down, you're not around Are you dreami

Anne's Feelings Last Night in Personal Relationships JoeUser Forums

I met the guy of my dreams. I want to cry just thinking of his face, and thinking about how much too much credit I'm putting into this. It's honestly a bit obsessive and ridiculous. There's no way he could have been as affected as me. He couldn't have prayed to meet someone so much like himself, like I prayed to meet someone so much like MYself. He couldn't have felt like giving up, like I did. He couldn't have meant those things he said to me... People at parties never mean it. (He only had two

A Poem... in Art JoeUser Forums

Freshman Fool/Amazing By Me :) Now that everything has changed I'll never be the same To hear you say my name It was amazing I'd searched my whole world through I never thought it was true But now I believe in you And you're amazing I'd hoped and prayed and cried my tears Nothing could relinquish my fears But now I know that you are real And you're understanding what I feel And it's amazing Will I ever see you again?

Last Night's Frat Party in Blogging JoeUser Forums

Well, I have to start out by saying I DIDN'T believe in love. I didn't believe in the capabilities of myself, either... Well, I do now. I kept saying I wanted to find my kind... I think I did. At a party last night. The most amazing guy in the universe. I don't even want to spend my time explaining it all, but he was wonderful. WONDERFUL!! I want to dance and sing in the rain, hug everyone, cry uncontrollably. How did i ever meet such an amazing person?? How did I ever get such an amazing person

Reply to And Now the Mother of All Mind Trips in Movies & TV & Books JoeUser Forums

I totally plan on doing this some day... I have heard of it before, and that just seals the deal. Imagining myself drooling. Yes. Thanks

Why doesn't anybody care?? in Misc JoeUser Forums

Here I go again. Biggest hit i can remember. Just joking. I have had more. Isn't anyone interested in an ex teenage rock star who smokes a hell of a lot too much weed? I guess not. My themes are all the same. What ifs and what nots. Who needs what ifs? I sure don't. I've made so many wrong decisions in my life it's like a gigantic what if, and i think if i ask, i would end up dying. I've got a good what if... What if i don't find my lighter? Dont worry, i did. But no. I can't say what if to ever

Ex Teenage Rock Star in Misc JoeUser Forums

Guess who's smoking her steamroller again!! I found my lighter, too, in a drawer. Strange i put it there... Oh well, not much of what I do makes sense! :S Jesus, sometimes i feel so pretty! Lonely, too. It's okay, the weed is currently doing for me what i need. Okay, so it doesn't give me sexual pleasure, but it makes me forget about needing some. Shit! I was just smoking with my retainers in. That means they're gonna taste like weed smoke for at least three days. AUGH! I hate when i do that!!!

Good Evening Tim Burton in Philosophy JoeUser Forums

It's 5:25 pm and i just got back from the most forgetful dinner ever. Corn dogs pudding and mashed potatoes, thats what i ate. And i didn't enjoy it, not really. I want to make ramen later. My room smells terrible like weed. I found out that my ex best friend Megan is living with my ex Ben now in his parents' garage, she's pregnant and works at walmart. Stupid fuckers who don't go to college and get pregnant when they're 19. Must've been her birthday present, or his. Thank God not mine, and when