@Xer07:
I didnt want to get dragged in all this...but I couldnt help it... *sigh* anyway...
My first initial reaction to all that about your crush: 
ROFLMAO
I'm sorry, but usually when I read or think things like that, (impossible situations, humiliting things, sad things etc etc) I laugh and make fun of them. Even when something bad happens to me I make fun of myself!
Its that cynicallity that characterizes me, that weird ability to turn bad sad and pathetic things into something funny 
A couple of questions if you dont mind:
5th Grade: Met her, introduced by Liz, one of my closer girl-friends of the day. Started to like her for her personality, openess, and her bold and fiery persona, which is still the opposite of mine, cool and secretive, today.
By "girl-friends" you mean, friends right? not girlfriends
6th Grade Part I: I move to maryland, and find myself bored and depressed there. Interestingly enough, despite the renewed (and much larger) population of girls, I found no crush there.
So you always look for a "crush" ? You dont need to always be in love or anything close to that, sometimes a break from anything romantical or emotional is good for you. "Too much of anything is never good" -me
How fitting, Xer0 is.... accurately describes what I am in the eyes of who I care about.
Is that why you sign as -Xer0 and not Xer07 ??
Ok, sorry for laghing at you at the start, its just my...thing, as I said. Heh but I'm interested, and thats why I ask you these questions.
Anyway, Shiro advised you to tell her how you feel, to suck up the courage and do it. Now I would like to give you some advice too, I am going to do something better:
- Nobody is wise or experienced or whatever enough, to tell you what to do with your life. No matter what they tell you, no matter what they say, you need to ALWAYS trust your insticts and do what you feel, think, and judge that is good, or neccessary to be done.-
I learned that from experience, and simple logic.
Now, If you want my advice I would love to give you some, but remember what I told you above, Only YOU can decide what is best for you, you and nobody else.
I have to tell you though,
Since you were never with her, (not in involved in a romantic way I mean), you never really lost her, and trust me, losing someone is the worst thing that can happen to you. I dont mean to be harsh or anything, I am simply saying that, - If you never had something, you never lost it - Dont be discouraged by it, if you can be with her, grab that chance, dont let it go, it is ALWAYS worth the risk. Just know that if you lose someone you trully love and care, its the worst pain, the worst thing that can happen to you, and you need to always be prepared to lose, because if you are not....well lets just say that it would be even harder to recover then. -talking from experience, again.
Personally, I'm going to go on loving her, possibly forever, but I know that I'll never get loved back, so I'll just protect her from all that causes her pain, until she can find happiness.
That is....true love. To love, care and protect someone, unconditionally, with nothing to gain for yourself.
Stop caring about me, because then I'll just become re-emboldened, try again, and fail. Again.
Since I, and probably nobody else here, know you personally in real life, I cant care over someone on the web. But dont be so pessimistic and never give up on people, even when they give up on you. This I just told you, comes from someone who gave up on people a loooong time ago, me.
"We all have our demons, and we do our best to fight them off" -I dont remember who said that, but its always in my mind. It means that we all fear of something(s), we all have things that make us really sad, things that happened, things that are happening, or things we are afraid that will happen. And these things torture us aka our "Demons".
This is why we are all here, right? In this forum I mean, because....We ALL have our demons....
p.s. sorry for my huge post.
