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sounding board in Personal Relationships JoeUser Forums

How do you tell someone that is genuinely trying to reach out, that you have no interest in them whatsoever. The artificial front that they present to the world, you know is a mask that they hide behind because they confessed it to be so while drunk, all the while I stood trapped, unable to leave or make myself care. I know now how to label it after years and years of hating, and before that fearing the very same markers that identify that personality. Boi

Undelivered in Life Journals JoeUser Forums

Dear XXXXXXX Why is everything so natural when we're together, yet so awkward as soon as the phone touches my ear. I can't read you, see your reactions, can't see you smile through the damned thing. Why can't I hear you smile? Are you excited when you see my name appear, or does a small frown appear on realizing that we are still apart. I hate this feeling, this unknown that looms over everything I do. I often wonder if this is the way, the path we need to be on, or sho

Love letter to no one in Life Journals JoeUser Forums

So writing a love letter seems to be a lost art. I do not know anyone who has actually ever written or received a love letter. Failure? Change in society, lack of ability, or faith there in to write. What do you actually say? What goes into a letter that would make a heart jump just looking at it. What to write that someone would cherish until the page it came on became crinkled and worn because it was read so many times. Maybe love, in the classical romantic sense is dead... De

The big conclusion in Life Journals JoeUser Forums

So big conclusion, it's important for me to remember. Need to get this down, I won't forget, even without, I won't forget this.....ever. I had a plan, it was smooth, daring, romantic and classy. I got a nice room with a great view, jacuzzi in the bedroom, brought champaign, even set roses out. It was wonderful, I figured it would work. Dinner at a nice little restaurant, shared desert, even started the evening with a kiss. All according to plan, in a way. I didn't think I'd be willing

Reply to Sometimes, the fetal position isn’t enough in Writing JoeUser Forums

getting feedback can be extremely dicouraging depending how you look at it. I had to start thinking that the people giving you serious feedback care enough to look over the work and genuinely want it to succeed. Good luck!

Whatever happens to come up in Life Journals JoeUser Forums

testing...testing...it's been awhile Let's see here... So it's been two years since I've been back to see my father and family, in some way it was too much time away yet not enough. Being military tends to keep personal time to a minimum, though don't get me wrong it's worth it in the end. The plan was just like a mission, get in say hello to family and select friends, then get out before the area became.... complicated. I love that word, it applies to almost everything

Ever look back? in Blogging JoeUser Forums

I guess it always comes down to this. Just sitting down and thinking about my past. The people I've loved and lost. It's been a great couple of years, and it's also been pretty rough. I just wonder how much I could have done differently. I've been in college, I've been in love, I've lost my mother (relationship, not death) I've gained something I've been after for 20

Reply to Groupies in Blogging JoeUser Forums

groupies?? They're still around? I thought that was a thing from the 70's-90's.

People at random in Life Journals JoeUser Forums

Ever run into someone later in life and just think, "wow, the times have sure changed." It happened to me last night. I ran into a girl from highschool that I once had a thing for. I was turned down, which didn't surprise me considering my "social position" in highschool. I wasn't exactly running with the "in crowd", and she was definately running with that crowd. Aga

I just want to be a little boy and always have fun in Life Journals JoeUser Forums

I've been thinking alot lately about all the things that I've gotten myself into. I joined the military knowing that I'm going to the desert and I have that chance of death. I wouldn't have joined if I wasn't ok with that. Now I'm not saying I want to go to Iraq and die, far from it. The US military slogans, among us anyways are, hurry up and wait, and the one

Get a real job in Blogging JoeUser Forums

I'm in the United States Air Force, and I take my mission very seriously. I love my country, I serve it and I am willing to die for it. I do this because there are people that I couldn't stand to see get hurt. These people I protect, I realize they have different views, different lives and they might even believe what I do for them is wrong, but I still do it because

The good the bad and the sad in Blogging JoeUser Forums

Well, I might as well go in order that the title dictates. The good first: I finally got "the call". I get shipped out to basic training on Tuesday. Now some may see this as bad, but I'm estatic. I not only have a career that i actually want to pursue, but I also get to escape all the drama from my family and "others". I'm pumped, it was perfect timing, so yeah, thats

Avoiding friends in Blogging JoeUser Forums

Ah, how easy is it to avoid people on the internet. As soon as you see them sign on, you simply sign off, or better yet use a ghost program. The downfall to this is, they realize they are being avoided. So whats the point I'm wondering. Prolonging the uncomfortable feeling that makes you avoid someone in the first place. There is a difference between cutting all commu

Reply to Yea, them Dirty Tarheels! in Sports & Leisure JoeUser Forums

Ah, male bonding. There is nothing better on earth.

Reply to Best Valentines day ever in Blogging JoeUser Forums

Air force all the way

Best Valentines day ever in Blogging JoeUser Forums

I just found out the best way for a single guy to spend valentines day. That sickening day if red hearts, candly and watching the sickening display that the coupled people put on. I also found the one place where all of it seems to dissappear! I spent the day in a military office doing tests, mental and medical. The theme of the day wasn't love, it was hurry up and wa

Reply to Islam, comprised of vile violent virulent viruses in Religion JoeUser Forums

see there is a problem with this. We see what makes the news, and todays media has a slogan. "bad news for them, equals good news for us." We see all the rebels, all the assholes, and all those crazy out of the ordinary people who do things so crazy it, "makes the news". If I were to apply your logic to them, all Americans would have sex at least three times a day, carry on affairs, love triangles and murder each other and come back from the dead.

Reply to Not the First, but Significant in Politics JoeUser Forums

I was born in the Benton Harbor area, and since I grew up in that area I just don't see what the big deal is. I wish people would stop putting such significance into someones race. I really can't see anyone who actually has a clue voting, to put someone in an office just because they are black. When the hell are all the different colors going to ceace being races and start just being Americans.

Reply to Daily Dose of Weird and Whacky Headlines in Humor JoeUser Forums

pretty good, paper shredder especially.

Reply to Come home bearing your shield, or on it in Blogging JoeUser Forums

just to clarify the point on my father, he is 56. He was not stationed there during the Korean war, but the Vietnam war. He was stationed directly on the DMZ, and sometimes, here are some things the government does not tell you about, they were sent over into the northern Korean territory. It wasn't fierce fighting every day, but he lost alot of friends on some of those missions. Not exactly something that the government decided to share over the news.

Come home bearing your shield, or on it in Blogging JoeUser Forums

The quote on the back of my senior T-shirt reads, "come home bearing your shield, or on it" except that it was in latin. It was much cooler that way. If you don't quite get what that means, it's pretty much "do or die trying." It was the phrase that sent warriors into battle, to fight, and sometimes die with pride and honor. It was inspiration, but also a promise that

Reply to Is it done yet? in GalCiv Journals JoeUser Forums

wow, you game designers are my heros!

Reply to What todo? in Dating JoeUser Forums

don't change yourself to get him. That would be deceiving him into thinking you were someone else. If you want to get in shape, do it for yourself, not a guy.

Reply to OK GOD, What's up with verps? in Humor JoeUser Forums

The honesty of the situation is always apalling.

Reply to Custodians - its not their job to pick up your crap in Life Journals JoeUser Forums

I went to a school full of preppy wealthy kids who literally had maids come in and clean their house. I think some of them really don't realize what one or two little pieces of garbage mean to the time of the janitor. One or two pieces from every kid, that's a huge mess that would have taken them seconds, as things go, this means hours from the staff. I sat down and explained this to a girl and she looked at me like I was trying to explain Einsteins