It's empty aggain :(

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My parents left on Monday night and since then home is back to being big and empty. I wish they had stayed a little bit longer. My Dad was teaching me to drive during the weekend and he was impressed at how fast i was learning :p

Anyway, just to say that i wish they were home. It's not fun to come back at home and have no one to talk to. Plus there's no TV, no computer, so i cant really entertain myself. There's just the radio to have some background noise. But that's about it.

So tonight, i'll go home, find something to eat. And then go for a game of pool. Which i really dont want to, but sounds better than facing another evening by myself.

Right now i'm fighting every little thoughts of calling Darren. I hate it. Is it really a bad thing if i call him?
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Reply #1 from JoeUser Forums Top
Get yourself a giant stuffed animal (doesn't matter what kind it is, your pick ), give it a name and talk to it. Seat it at the table when you eat, put it to bed when you sleep (not necesarily with you, that depends on the kind of relationship you want with it ). Generally carry on with your new roommate. You'll either have a great time laughing, or decide it's just to silly and go find more funner things to do. Either way, won't be quiet so empty...
Reply #2 from JoeUser Forums Top

Get yourself a giant stuffed anima

Or a cat.  Same thing, but they purr better.

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Reply #3 from JoeUser Forums Top
Dr Guy: I want a cat but what's gonna happen when i have to fly to New Caledonia and everything behind.

Danny, i've got teddy bears, stuffed doggies, stuffed rabbits, stuffed monkeys, they're all over the place! But talking to them would definetely be tooooooo weird.... lol
Reply #4 from JoeUser Forums Top

Dr Guy: I want a cat but what's gonna happen when i have to fly to New Caledonia and everything behind.

Darvon, and a carry on bag works well!  Just ask my sister (who smuggled a Gerbil back from Germany 30 years ago!).

Puurrrrrrrrrrr

Reply #5 from JoeUser Forums Top
Hehe, i dont think i'll pass customs with a purring cat in a bag saying 'nothing to declare'...
Reply #6 from JoeUser Forums Top

Hehe, i dont think i'll pass customs with a purring cat in a bag saying 'nothing to declare'...

They dont purr when zonked on Darvon!  What do you think they vets give them when they snip them? (I dont know if it is darvon, but they look the same!)

Reply #7 from JoeUser Forums Top
Hahahaha! Dr Guy, you seriuously want to put me in trouble dont you? First you want stolen kisses, than you want me to smuggle cats, naughty, naughty
Reply #9 from JoeUser Forums Top
I agree with Shovel, go shoot pool. And have some fun in the process. Calling Darren is only going to make you start those feelings all over again. You're doing well. This too shall pass, it will!
Reply #10 from JoeUser Forums Top
Yes, go shoot some pool! Have some fun, ok?

I played pool last night!! I teamed up with Delizia and we played against this two guys. They sank the 8 first, but we were really about to win. Heh, i had a good time, lots of Johnny Walker and a couple of Sambuca shots AND I DONT EVEN HAVE A HEADACHE THIS MORNING! YAY!

I agree with Shovel, go shoot pool. And have some fun in the process. Calling Darren is only going to make you start those feelings all over again. You're doing well. This too shall pass, it will!

It's true foreverserenity. I called him Wednesday (stupid me) cuz i was really feeling low, and Delizia had the flu so i didnt want to disturb her. He came around to talk, but when he left the place felt even emptier.
Yesterday he was the one who called though. I was about to have my first shot of sambuca when he rang. I felt guilty for having a good time when he was home and sounded depressed. I shouldnt, but i cant help it. I still care for him a lot + it's his birthday on Sunday and he said he doesnt want to plan anything. He doesnt feel like celebrating he said. I wish i could do something to make him happy at last...
Reply #11 from JoeUser Forums Top

He doesnt feel like celebrating he said. I wish i could do something to make him happy at last...

What will make him happy will not make you happy.  In time, the 2 may meet.  For now, he needs to learn the difference between convenience and commitment.

Reply #12 from JoeUser Forums Top
What will make him happy will not make you happy.

I'm not happy anyway, so if i can find something that'll make him happy... I've bought him a booklet called 'daily strength'. It's got quotes from the Bible that i find inspiring. He's not Christian, but i still hope it'll bring him some comfort. GOSH! I just want him to feel ok

In time, the 2 may meet. For now, he needs to learn the difference between convenience and commitment.

Well i'm sure he knows the difference, otherwize he would have pretended everything is fine and would have never accepted to break up with me.