Banned because it's obviously her and she's quite attractive.

banned for you could still be a pedophile

Banned because I highly doubt that. Statistically, there are very few female pedophiles.

he he, dont mind these guys skidia, they are just messing with you.

Just like I did, when I said that you are a guy its all good fun, right?

Banned because.....since like yesterday, I miss my ex-girlfriend very very much

Banned because you miss your ex.

banned for banning him for missing his ex

Banned for banning him for banning him for missing his ex....yea I went there

banned for not feeling the pain of seperating froms ones you love it hurts

Banned because I find it rather irrelevant whether you are male or female: it's how you think and act that determines your standing relative to me.

banned for not elplaining that very simply

Banned because he means boy or girl he only cares about how ya act

hehe...haha....bwaHAHAHAHAHA!

Here, my epic story of FAILURE will definetly cheer you up, and make you forget about your love issues.

Where the hell is Veers? He'll laugh for days at how badly I'm screwed THIS time...

Let me recap: For the past... oh, 2 weeks to a month, my Crush has had NO boy issues at all, and has been much more happy than normal. We're getting closer all the time, to the point where she trusts me with almost anything on her mind now.

Here's the funny part: Today I found out why she doesn't have any boy issues nowadays...

She's "dating" (I'll explain the airquotes later) one of my flirty friends... Hannah.

Why the hell does crap like this always happen to me? *Sigh*

*I say "dating" because it's not a full-blown thing, but it IS romantic, don't get me wrong...

Banned because

1. I have all night to do this now...

2. I've decided to switch from WiC to here, given that I'm almost done replacing myself in WiC, but here the Forums quite literally DIED in the 1-2 days I left.

3. Because my crush is at the movies with her GF and 9 other friends as we speak for her B-Day, and I wasn't invited...

Xer0 \^/

I'm banning myself because I get too personal on the Forums. Maybe that's why I get so involved in it..

anyway, Time for self-therapy! Yay! Anime pix!

(C2 and Kallen Kozuki, main Female Protagonists)

(C2, The Queen of Code: Geass)

(C2 and Lelouch, one of my fave pix of them)

(Full Cast pic, YAY!)

(Continued C2)

(Main Characters...)

(Shirley Fenette, has a crush on Lelouch, goes to school w/ him)

(Lelouch vi Brittannia, Code: Geass's main Anti-Hero/Protagonist)

(Euphemia li Britannia, Lelouch's 1/2 Sister)

Meh, I'm all Code: Geass out for now, be back in 10.

Xer0 \^/

........ so much......... i...... i really dont know....what to say  

niace therapy methed i guess........

and your not the only one who has a crash gets close and find out there already dateing i wont even count how many times thats happened to me but just remember theres still people out there you never know who youll find

...... atât de multe I. ..... i într-adevãr dont know .... ce să spun

Banned for no ban.

Banned for smiley overload.

SMILEY OVERLOAD!!! IT IS AS THOUGH A THOUSAND MOUTHS CRY OUT IN PAIN!!!!!!

banned for so many picture i just love that method of theropy

I understand that, Skidi, I'm not that self-centered. However, you're new here, and don't know the whole story, so let me explain....

I have liked this girl, Mishayla, ever since I met her in 5th Grade, roughly 5-6 years ago. (And, according to Twilight_Storm, my feelings of affection have developed into love, something I don't doubt) Allow me to put each year on a timeline to fully elaborate.

5th Grade: Met her, introduced by Liz, one of my closer girl-friends of the day. Started to like her for her personality, openess, and her bold and fiery persona, which is still the opposite of mine, cool and secretive, today.

6th Grade Part I: I move to maryland, and find myself bored and depressed there. Interestingly enough, despite the renewed (and much larger) population of girls, I found no crush there.

6th Grade Part II: We begin to move back to PA, where I try my best to re-connect to all my friends in the 2 months of school I have left. My crush... fails to reconnect with me, and I get my first true taste of heartbreak.

7th Grade Part I: Over summer vacation, I become moderatly infatuated with the neighbor girl, who resembles my crush physically, but not personally.

7th Grade Part II: My neighbor girl moves away, my second taste of heartbreak, but I'm back in school again, where I still adore my crush from afar, since I still havn't reconnected with her, or the rest of my girl-friends, yet.

8th grade: I start to break down... my grades drop to their lowest point ever, I change my grades on this computer, but get caught, I lose most of my friends, and my crush starts to date other guys in earnest. She also starts to dye her hair her trademark shade of Red.

9th Grade: Things look up. I finally re-connect with my girl-friends, and even get some firty friends (Ashley, Hannah, Alex, among others) in the process. I now do my best to stop other guys from dating her, not because I'm jealous, but because the other guys she dates aren't exactly.... role-model boyfriends. One was abusive, one was ignorant, one used drugs, and another just dated her to get closer to Liz, her best friend.

Now, 10th Grade: The Crossroads of our Destinies, as I see it. Somehow, at the start of the year, I ended up dating her Best Friend, Liz, while she's had a good.... 8 Boyfriends since then. Liz left me 4 days after V-Day, and I've been doing my best to console my heartbroken and worn-down crush ever since.

Today, I find out that she's "dating" a girl, since she's classified all guys (but me, she tells me that I'm "Different" or "Special"), rightly, as insensitive jerks. Not only am I outclassed, but now I also feel like Destiny, or Fate, or God, for that matter, just likes to see me get close to my goal, and then fall back down to square one. Since 5th Grade, not only have I NEVER sucked up the courage, or the sheer guts to ask her out, but she's also had the better end of a dozen to 18 boyfriends. She's out of my league, I'm WAAY deep in the Friend Zone, and yet I'm not even close enough of a friend to be invited to her B-Day.... which was today as well.

How fitting, Xer0 is.... accurately describes what I am in the eyes of who I care about.

Banned because you need to go to bed. Stop caring about me, because then I'll just become re-emboldened, try again, and fail. Again.

Personally, I'm going to go on loving her, possibly forever, but I know that I'll never get loved back, so I'll just protect her from all that causes her pain, until she can find happiness.

Xer0 \^/

Banned because I KNEW IT! I knew it would change to a girl....ignore that tho...

Anyway dont give up so easily bro just ask her about her feeling for you all ready and tell her you love her, yes im a hypocrite have no guts either but hell worse case things get weird between you 2 best case you find out she might have feelings for you as well. and maybe she felt a little embarrased to invite you over to her b-day with only 9 other people there....but seriouslly take my advice with a grain of salt do what you will but I wish the best for you.

Banned for knowing it would change to a girl.

like i siad before i know how it feels i had many a heart broken and my friends and family turned there backs on me because i was different the only person in this world i feel still loves me is my mother and when my family turned on us we left for america where for 3 years i strugled to learn english and was shuned by many when i went to my first year of high school people started to accept me i dated a few boys but it didnt feel "right" to me i then begun to realise i didnt like boys in that..... way and prtty much as friends but i never loved someone until 10th grade when i met a real nice girl she had dark eyes black hair and a real warm smile that always made you feel welcome we fell and love but had to keep it secret for many would have hurt me or her if they found out one day when we where going to a movie and we where walking to the theater when two men walked out from an ally they demanded our purses but we refused one man tryed to grab Sarah she kicked him in and his friend stabed her they grabed her purse and ran i sat by her bleeding body traumatized i never left and even when the ambulance arived i tryed to attack them i dont know why i was just in so much pain and for 3 days Sarah was in the hospital i sat by her until the end and on april,23,2009 Sarah M. Shalmen died for weeks i stopped i felt i could not go on liveing but i had a dream and Sarah told me that i cannot keep going like this that she wanted me to live and find happiness even if she was not there to share it with me so xero i know how it feels and you ar not alone just know that even if you never get the chance it dosnt meen you will never find happiness

--"Love is a never ending cycle  that can be over come it may bring you down but you always find your way back"--Sarah M. Shalmen

Skidi: I'm sorry. I guess it's just that the rollercoastering of events with her just threw me off.  I never said that I wouldn't find happiness either. So long as she is happy, I am as well.  Another thing that's also my fault is that I centered my entire life around her... when there's so much else I could have done when I wasn't with her.  Thanks for your advice, input and wisdom, I truly appreciate it.

Shiro: "Don't give up so easily"? If I was a quitter, I'd have given up in 6th grade.  hehe, I guess that phrase just might come into fruition after all..

Banned because I'm sorry that I put everyone here through my personal issues... I'll try to just keep quiet about this stuff from now on.

"Courage is the magic that turns Dreams into Reality"

-Xer0 \^/

Banned cuz we never said you had to keep quite about it and its really interesting....what else do you think I have to do all day

Skidi: I'm sorry that must've been hard on you.

@Xer07:

I didnt want to get dragged in all this...but I couldnt help it... *sigh* anyway...

My first initial reaction to all that about your crush: ROFLMAO

I'm sorry, but usually when I read or think things like that, (impossible situations, humiliting things, sad things etc etc) I laugh and make fun of them. Even when something bad happens to me I make fun of myself!

Its that cynicallity that characterizes me, that weird ability to turn bad sad and pathetic things into something funny

A couple of questions if you dont mind:

By "girl-friends" you mean, friends right? not girlfriends

So you always look for a "crush" ? You dont need to always be in love or anything close to that, sometimes a break from anything romantical or emotional is good for you. "Too much of anything is never good" -me

Is that why you sign as -Xer0 and not Xer07 ??

Ok, sorry for laghing at you at the start, its just my...thing, as I said. Heh but I'm interested, and thats why I ask you these questions.

Anyway, Shiro advised you to tell her how you feel, to suck up the courage and do it. Now I would like to give you some advice too, I am going to do something better:

- Nobody is wise or experienced or whatever enough, to tell you what to do with your life. No matter what they tell you, no matter what they say, you need to ALWAYS trust your insticts and do what you feel, think, and judge that is good, or neccessary to be done.-

I learned that from experience, and simple logic.

Now, If you want my advice I would love to give you some, but remember what I told you above, Only YOU can decide what is best for you, you and nobody else.

I have to tell you though,

Since you were never with her, (not in involved in a romantic way I mean), you never really lost her, and trust me, losing someone is the worst thing that can happen to you. I dont mean to be harsh or anything, I am simply saying that, - If you never had something, you never lost it - Dont be discouraged by it, if you can be with her, grab that chance, dont let it go, it is ALWAYS worth the risk. Just know that if you lose someone you trully love and care, its the worst pain, the worst thing that can happen to you, and you need to always be prepared to lose, because if you are not....well lets just say that it would be even harder to recover then.  -talking from experience, again.

That is....true love. To love, care and protect someone, unconditionally, with nothing to gain for yourself.

Since I, and probably nobody else here, know you personally in real life, I cant care over someone on the web. But dont be so pessimistic and never give up on people, even when they give up on you. This I just told you, comes from someone who gave up on people a loooong time ago, me.

"We all have our demons, and we do our best to fight them off" -I dont remember who said that, but its always in my mind. It means that we all fear of something(s), we all have things that make us really sad, things that happened, things that are happening, or things we are afraid that will happen. And these things torture us aka our "Demons".

This is why we are all here, right? In this forum I mean, because....We ALL have our demons....

p.s. sorry for my huge post.

omg.....I..dont know what to say....

I...am really sorry to hear that, skidiantasa

I just have to say....... we need more people like you and Sara on this messed up little ball of rock.......