Another Full Throttle Weekend
On life's roller coaster
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So, it has been a busy and eventful weekend, winding down to a rather disheartening close. Que sera...
Friday night i settled in for a lonely evening at home, swilling a pitcher full of frozen white russians. But a very interesting man gave me a call and wanted to come over, which delighted me, and i welcomed the visit. He is interesting, with a sly sense of humor, and seems to have a nice supply of kindness... but i think he is not so interested in me. I think i am probably too wild for him. Too bad for me, he is worth having around... I may be jumping to conclusions, but i don't think so.
Anyway... back to the chronology...
Friday night my brother's dog killed my pet bunny (who recently went from a cage to a yard bunny). I feel responsible because it happened while i was drinking and flirting, and could/should have been more supervisory of the situation. It isn't like the dog hadn't been around the bunny before... And it all happened so fast and silently, like in a 15 minute span when i let the dog out to pee. Tomorrow I have to tell my 8 year old daughter. This i dread. Now, I feel like i have to find another home for the dog, who i didn't want anyway, but it would be best for my brother if i keep the dog, because he could get him back...
About my brother and Saturday... On Saturday morning, i cleaned and cleaned my brother's truck getting it ready to sell. Then i went to visit my brother, in jail. This is the first of i don't know how many times i will see him there, over the next several years. The court appointed attorney didn't bother to explain the situation to my brother, so i had to tell him he will probably be in there (drunk driving for the millionth time) for five years or maybe more. We both cried.
If i keep the dog, he can have the dog back when he gets out. That is not going to be true of any other situation i can arrange. But i don't want a big dog in my little yard. Either i will feel bad about finding a different home for the dog, or i will feel put upon by keeping the dog (who has already killed the bunny). It is a lose/lose situation.
Saturday i also lined up a roommate. A SAP programmer from Toronto in TX for a contract. Sounds like he will be here for about 2 months or so. The money will certainly come in handy, since i don't get any child support or anything. What i get is what i earn. Plus, the company might do me some good. Made that deal after the visit with my brother. The new renter wants a furnished room.
So, Saturday night i am frantically buying, transporting, and assembling some cheap furniture. Plus, did in fact sell my brother's truck and got it out of the driveway. Made that deal Saturday night.
Sunday morning, finishing getting the room ready, and the renter moves in... he seems harmless and personable and is about 10 years younger than me. 2 kids and a wife in Toronto. I don't think it will be a bad thing, but it might look odd to potential boyfriends. That seems like a moot point now... I had hoped my friend from Friday night would like me as much as i did him... not so... too bad... i will try to be graceful about that tho (which is hard when you are as pathetically lonely as i am)... He was very sweet to me on Friday about the bunny, and there were some other appealing things about him.
So, to summarize the weekend:
Loved, lost, cried, tried, earned, ... guess i will work on learned now... maybe there is something educational on tv... oh wait, maybe one of those stinking life lessons again...
Oh well, it's not all that bad, right? Decidedly beats being dead...
Friday night i settled in for a lonely evening at home, swilling a pitcher full of frozen white russians. But a very interesting man gave me a call and wanted to come over, which delighted me, and i welcomed the visit. He is interesting, with a sly sense of humor, and seems to have a nice supply of kindness... but i think he is not so interested in me. I think i am probably too wild for him. Too bad for me, he is worth having around... I may be jumping to conclusions, but i don't think so.
Anyway... back to the chronology...
Friday night my brother's dog killed my pet bunny (who recently went from a cage to a yard bunny). I feel responsible because it happened while i was drinking and flirting, and could/should have been more supervisory of the situation. It isn't like the dog hadn't been around the bunny before... And it all happened so fast and silently, like in a 15 minute span when i let the dog out to pee. Tomorrow I have to tell my 8 year old daughter. This i dread. Now, I feel like i have to find another home for the dog, who i didn't want anyway, but it would be best for my brother if i keep the dog, because he could get him back...
About my brother and Saturday... On Saturday morning, i cleaned and cleaned my brother's truck getting it ready to sell. Then i went to visit my brother, in jail. This is the first of i don't know how many times i will see him there, over the next several years. The court appointed attorney didn't bother to explain the situation to my brother, so i had to tell him he will probably be in there (drunk driving for the millionth time) for five years or maybe more. We both cried.
If i keep the dog, he can have the dog back when he gets out. That is not going to be true of any other situation i can arrange. But i don't want a big dog in my little yard. Either i will feel bad about finding a different home for the dog, or i will feel put upon by keeping the dog (who has already killed the bunny). It is a lose/lose situation.
Saturday i also lined up a roommate. A SAP programmer from Toronto in TX for a contract. Sounds like he will be here for about 2 months or so. The money will certainly come in handy, since i don't get any child support or anything. What i get is what i earn. Plus, the company might do me some good. Made that deal after the visit with my brother. The new renter wants a furnished room.
So, Saturday night i am frantically buying, transporting, and assembling some cheap furniture. Plus, did in fact sell my brother's truck and got it out of the driveway. Made that deal Saturday night.
Sunday morning, finishing getting the room ready, and the renter moves in... he seems harmless and personable and is about 10 years younger than me. 2 kids and a wife in Toronto. I don't think it will be a bad thing, but it might look odd to potential boyfriends. That seems like a moot point now... I had hoped my friend from Friday night would like me as much as i did him... not so... too bad... i will try to be graceful about that tho (which is hard when you are as pathetically lonely as i am)... He was very sweet to me on Friday about the bunny, and there were some other appealing things about him.
So, to summarize the weekend:
Loved, lost, cried, tried, earned, ... guess i will work on learned now... maybe there is something educational on tv... oh wait, maybe one of those stinking life lessons again...
Oh well, it's not all that bad, right? Decidedly beats being dead...