Graduation
I will miss you guys!!! *tear*
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Graduation. It is the end of one chapter in your life, and the beginning of a new one. Thirteen years (or more) of a pointless, daily activity we like to refer to as “school”. It doesn’t seem like a big deal. I mean, you are going to college! You are going to party like there is no tomorrow! No parents, no bedtime, no rules! But, as you are starting this chapter in your life, don’t you wonder how you got that far…
I sat through the Class of 2004 graduation today. I played in the band and watched the whole ceremony. If I wasn’t in the band I probably wouldn’t have gone anyway. But as I think back, I am glad I did. When I sat in my seat with my instrument in my lap… I looked around the band. There was no bass clarinet, no clarinet in the first chair, there was two flutes missing, a trumpet was gone… and there was no tenor saxophone in the back row. It took me a while for it to click… they are going to be gone forever. I may not have ever talked to them, or I may have had a relationship with one of them… but, it hurt to see those empty chairs realizing that a whole year has just went by.
At the beginning I said I wasn’t going to cry, I had no reason to cry. As we played Pomp and Circumstance, the seniors walked in, and sat down in their chairs. Some words were spoken by the class secretary, we played the Star Spangled Banner and said the Pledge of Allegiance. Then, we played the senior song, Barrier Reef. I guess that’s when it really sank in… I will never play with those six very special people again, I may never even see them again.
Then the speeches came… the first time I cried during the whole ceremony is when the valedictorian spoke. The valedictorian is a very special person named Alan. Alan was that tenor sax missing in the back row, he was the Alan that I gave my heart to. Thinking back, he meant the world to me and I never thought about what would happen to us when he walked across that stage. We were together for about 6 months, and we broke up about 2 months ago. I still don’t know why we broke up, but it hurt me a lot (and I was extremely angry at some information I found out later). I thought I hated him, I thought that I never wanted to see his face again. But at graduation, when he gave that speech, I realized that Alan still means the world to me. When I saw him walk across that stage getting his “Career Passport”, that was the second time I cried. I might never see him again, and that hurt just as bad as dieing.
Then the thought came, that I am going to be up there in 3 years… I am going to leave my friends, my family, and my school. I am going to get on that stage, shake the hands of the whole Board of Education, walk off that stage entering a new chapter and leaving behind an old one. And i will have to watch all of my upperclassmen friends do it next year, or the year after. I will miss Alex, Brandon, Rachael, Shaun and Jennifer. I will miss everyone i have grown close to in the past...
I know that I am going to cry at every graduation I go to, probably even my own. But, I know that I will always remember that chapter in my life. My friends mean the world to me, just as much as the seniors who just received their diploma 5 hours ago.
The point of this article is to express my feeling toward this whole situation. All of those six graduates are going to live a great life. I will miss them all. But most of all, I will miss that tenor sax player in the back row… who I would give the world to in a heart beat. Because, how I felt about him before has changed in less than an hour today.
I will miss you Alan…
I sat through the Class of 2004 graduation today. I played in the band and watched the whole ceremony. If I wasn’t in the band I probably wouldn’t have gone anyway. But as I think back, I am glad I did. When I sat in my seat with my instrument in my lap… I looked around the band. There was no bass clarinet, no clarinet in the first chair, there was two flutes missing, a trumpet was gone… and there was no tenor saxophone in the back row. It took me a while for it to click… they are going to be gone forever. I may not have ever talked to them, or I may have had a relationship with one of them… but, it hurt to see those empty chairs realizing that a whole year has just went by.
At the beginning I said I wasn’t going to cry, I had no reason to cry. As we played Pomp and Circumstance, the seniors walked in, and sat down in their chairs. Some words were spoken by the class secretary, we played the Star Spangled Banner and said the Pledge of Allegiance. Then, we played the senior song, Barrier Reef. I guess that’s when it really sank in… I will never play with those six very special people again, I may never even see them again.
Then the speeches came… the first time I cried during the whole ceremony is when the valedictorian spoke. The valedictorian is a very special person named Alan. Alan was that tenor sax missing in the back row, he was the Alan that I gave my heart to. Thinking back, he meant the world to me and I never thought about what would happen to us when he walked across that stage. We were together for about 6 months, and we broke up about 2 months ago. I still don’t know why we broke up, but it hurt me a lot (and I was extremely angry at some information I found out later). I thought I hated him, I thought that I never wanted to see his face again. But at graduation, when he gave that speech, I realized that Alan still means the world to me. When I saw him walk across that stage getting his “Career Passport”, that was the second time I cried. I might never see him again, and that hurt just as bad as dieing.
Then the thought came, that I am going to be up there in 3 years… I am going to leave my friends, my family, and my school. I am going to get on that stage, shake the hands of the whole Board of Education, walk off that stage entering a new chapter and leaving behind an old one. And i will have to watch all of my upperclassmen friends do it next year, or the year after. I will miss Alex, Brandon, Rachael, Shaun and Jennifer. I will miss everyone i have grown close to in the past...
I know that I am going to cry at every graduation I go to, probably even my own. But, I know that I will always remember that chapter in my life. My friends mean the world to me, just as much as the seniors who just received their diploma 5 hours ago.
The point of this article is to express my feeling toward this whole situation. All of those six graduates are going to live a great life. I will miss them all. But most of all, I will miss that tenor sax player in the back row… who I would give the world to in a heart beat. Because, how I felt about him before has changed in less than an hour today.
I will miss you Alan…
