StAtiC--9

OK Dave, I concede, you are the oldest living person on Earth, I was just kidding!

That dreaded feeling before work. Knowing you're about to slave away the rest of your day doing something you hate. Watching the clock all day long, just to check out, and do it all over again the next day.

I think the trick here is to find a job you enjoy doing or find a way to enjoy doing it. Best of all, find a job that relates to your hobby.

You can always daydream while at work [for most jobs, anyways].

Where can I find one of these 80 hour days?? I could get a lot of stuff done in one of those...

Well, my job requires to be on my feet for 10 hours a day, and I like to move REALLY fast.  Even to the point of being dangerous around others (in case I bump into them).  And as for a job relating to my hobby?  Not hardly.  But heck, I still have this job.

And I daydream all the time @ work 'cause my job is SOOOOOOOOOO boring and repetitive.  It makes time fly, and then my accuracy level slips.

The place where I work is CLASSIFIED INFORMATION.  I won't go any further than that for privacy reasons.

I started a new job this past summer. I've needed to vent and then I saw this thread brought back to life.

Where to start, where to start....

I was hired based on a certain knowledge I have but no way to 'certify' it. They want to send me to school for that. They still haven't, but at there request, I have held several classes and meetings and 'faked' my way through it all, even though my boss and the CEO know better. I'm doing 'beautiful' powerpoint presentations and the whole nine yards. Handouts, questionaires, etc. AND IT'S ALL BULLSHIT!

I got a Christmas bonus. They didn't tell me I was getting one or do anything to even hint at it, it just was handed to me with my regular check. They don't tell you anything. Since, in my mind, I have not done ANYTHING but fake these classes, I must assume the bonus was for that. Otherwise, I have to assume it's hush money.

I got a raise at the beginning of the month. After only 6 months. And not a cost of living raise, or 3% raise. Try 10.8% raise. AND THEY DIDN'T TELL ME. It was just there. I had to ask the controller.

I'm thinking I work for Scientologists, as everything is a secret and I keeped getting perks and stuff for doing nothing. I figure at this rate I should reach level 37 in a few months and get to see those psychiatric documents Tom Cruise was so excited about on the Today Show. I'll tell Barbarino you all said 'Hey.'

I had to explain to the CEO today that EVERYONE in the company has the same email password. He didn't see the problem as he felt anyone who wanted to figure it out would have to go to too much trouble to hack it. TI have to be careful here, but let's just say, the password may as well have been '1234'. In fact, it's even MORE obvious than that. That aside, I said 'What about the managers who already KNOW it...what if one gets a bug up his ass and decides to turn it over to the competition (very cut throat business, I'm in.) Then he said not to worry, because it's not the actual email password, but the MASTER to ALL email and the sever. Sigh. I had to then show him how I can pull up ALL the emails, business and personal. After I explained how this was possible and any 10 year old could do it with little to no effort, he had all the passwords changed. I guess he decided it was worth it to protect a multi-million dollar a year company. Maybe I will get another bonus.

I started out really liking this job. Now I find myself wishing I had gotten laid off instead of a raise. I have all the authority to do what I want as the vice-president, but constantly have the vice-presidents foot on my throat. They keep throwing me into impossible situations to fix, start, sort, whatever, and I can feel my blood pressure either soaring or wanting to bottom out. I am in pain...PAIN 24/7...I could eat percaset all freakin day and it would only make me not care about the pain but not make it go away at this point. I HAD an oppurtunity to get surgery but was convinced I should wait and now the oppurtunity is LONG freakin g gone and I don't see it coming around again unless my back blows the hell out...which it will and I pray for on a daily basis just to be done with it. I work 16 hour days, miss my kids, and am sick and fucking tired of fast food, restaurants, and hotels. I'd kiss skinhits ass to be able to just work from home, spend more time with the kids, and not feel like I am a mental case about to explode and have a complete breakdown.

And this is just work. I get to go home to my mother-in-law, who broke her leg in 4 places on my front lawn two weeks before Christmas and now LIVES in MY recliner.  I have missed the last two weeks of HOUSE MD because she wants to watch the The Bachelor. This is the same woman, when over hearing my wife and I discuss living wills and my desire to not have her take care of me if it comes to that, offered...no ...joyfully stated 'Don't you worry about a thing, Noah. I'll make sure that damn plug gets pulled if I have to knock her and the doctors over."  My name is no longer 'Noah', by the way. I am now called 'While-Your-Up'. I suppose this is a step up from 'Damn Yankee'.

Then, I get you guys...yeah YOU's PMing me and asking whats wrong and telling me you're my 'friend'. And I can't respond. I'm not an ass. I'm not. Really. I'm just a wreck. And I don't have freinds. Cause there is a whole lot of other shit going on or been going on or has happened and the bottom line is I don't have any freinds and you freak me the fuck out when you tell me you ARE my freind and I just wanna curl up in a corner and close my eyes.

SO. Now it's out there. To quote Cleveland.,'And boom goes the dynamite.'

I'm going back to my corner now.

No wonder you pass rocks.

You gotta let me teach you some Namaste moves.  OOhmmm  

Weird.

The solution to these problems seems obvious.

Suicide.  Never fails.

I get that its somehow therapeutic for some people to whine about their lives on public forums.  Oh no, raises!  Oh no I hate my job, but I won't quit, I'll only be a dickhead and try to get fired!  Oh no!

Do you get that it's therapeutic for some people to point this out, bluntly?

I'm not trying to funny.

 You know nothing of what you speak of.  Total Ignoramus. Your lack of feeling proves inexperience. And who are you to know 'how' a person should react to stress or great loss. Right or wrong. What they need to hear?

Are you licensed to offer medical advice?

Shadowtongue, I lost my brother to suicide and I find your post offensive. If you were touched personally by a close suicide you would know what I mean/why I feel as I do.   Please edit or remove it.

While suicide may be the answer for the person committing/contemplating it, it leaves too many people unnecessarily hurting and grieving afterwards.  My brother left 3 young sons behind, and all 3 of them have issues and carry a great deal of hurt around with them every day.  Those boys are loved by the family, but we can never replace the love and guidance of their father... that is gone for ever.